Year 2009
1 more hour to go...the world will step into Year 2010. 1 hours left for Year 2009
Reflash back what I have done in Year 2009.
Not so many.
Got my first bonus in my working life, being converted to a fixed employee, get to know more and deep about my job, become a shopholic, etc...
I can't list down anymore..all is just related to work. My life for Year 2009 not so exciting and happening...
No new thing being added in my life. Everthing remain the same.......
Year 2010 is in front of me, what should I do to change my life & get a better life?
I'm still thinking...........
习惯和依赖
习惯与依赖这两样东西是长久累积下来才会形成的
习惯是很可怕的东西, 好的习惯固然是好
一旦你染上坏习惯, 那就会变得很可怕
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两个人在一起, 很多事情都会变成一种习惯或依赖
习惯一起吃饭, 习惯一起看电视节目, 习惯一起逛街,
习惯分享心事或烦恼
两个人也会互相依赖
男的可能会依赖女的帮他洗衣服, 女的可能会依赖男的帮她张罗三餐
很多很多的习惯和依赖就在无形中形成
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但是, 两个人如果一旦分开
所有的习惯和依赖就必须戒掉
各自过各自的生活
一个人吃饭, 一个人看电视节目, 一个人逛街
没有所谓的习惯, 没有所谓的依赖
一切的一切都要回到当初一个人的时候
不管你有多么的不习惯, 那就是事实
不管你有多辛苦, 那还是事实
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*p/s: 最近都很烦，很多事情在同一时间发生。很讨厌这种烦人的事情，明明不是我的事，但是我却要为它而烦。我很烦！！！但是我无能为力，什么都做不了.....
Merry Christmas
Thanks Stephanie bought me this cute Santa Claus..Christmas is coming soon~~~ But..I have to work!!!!!
Why no holiday in Taiwan???????
This is the 2nd year that I need to work and stay in the office
I hate to work in Christmas because almost all the Asean country is on holiday
So no people in office
The only poor things are all the colleague who support Taiwan line *sucks!
Year 2010 coming soon~~~~
Word of wisdom
Learned 2 wisdom from my two different colleague recently. Found it very meaningful and motivative. Thanks for their sharing and cheers up.
"A journey of a thousand miles begin with the first step"
*always begin with the first step however smallest.
"You first step is all that it takes to reach success. It shows your faith in your dreams. It shows your belief in yourself."
想太多
有时候我觉得很多事情不需要想那么多
想越多就会把事情复杂化
想太多会扭曲了一些事实
想太多同时也可能会导致很多不必要的误会
人的大脑是复杂的
越不让它想，它却越要想
越想要控制它，它却越跑越远，越不让你控制
*p/s: 突然间想起了李玖哲的歌........'想太多'
TOP Training
IBM organized My Business III - Leading Change Through TOP from month October till January 2010. All IBMers have to attend this training by follow different batch every week. 3 days 2 night (Thursday - Saturday) offside training at Pullman Putrajaya Lakeside.
I have attended last week batch (12th Nov-14th Nov). It is a very nice training and learning section. I think most of them are very enjoy on it. Around 100 IBMers joined this batch and being separated into 5 training rooms. Every room have around 20 people and being separated again into 5 or 6 small group, 4-5 person each group. Each group has 2 trainer to lead.
TOP stand for Team Discipline, Orgization Excellence, Personal Leadership. As what our director said, the objective of this training is ' to build TOP perfomers out of every IBMer, encouraging a nucleas of passionate innovators with high leadership qualities to complement our distinct brand values. Every IBMer in Malaysia is an important asset to the continuing growth and progress of the IBM brand. This customized program is to capitalize on the inherent strengths of individuals, shaping them into synergistic excellence towards a T-shape workforce. '
The objective is super long and deep. I'm not sure whether the training has meet the objective that set by IBM or not but no doubt the training was fun and energetic. The environment of the resort was very nice and beautiful.
*photo from Google 
*Our King size bed. 2 person per room. More pic in my FB.I likes the room so so much. Very nice and comfortable.
This is our training room. The mahjong paper paste on the wall is our task. We need to do some task in group and present it to everyone.
*Our room members.
I get to know a lot of IBMers through these training. As what our's trainer said, when the first day we step in the room, he saw all of us was come with individual spirit. But in the last day of training, he saw all of us was walked out with a team spirit. This is what he expected and we do it. We need to archieve a lot of goal during the training. Most of the task need a very strong teamwork just can archieve it. Not every goal we can archieve but we archieve most of it.
Although we are not the best team, but I think all of us did a good job in this 3 days 2 night training. Everyone was very active and well attend in every single indoor and outdoor game. All of us has tried our best to archieve all the goal.
I'm really have fun in this training and get to know a lot of new friends there. Hope IBM can organize more such training.
*p/s: aseng, i update a complete entry already..hehehee~
2 mths time
My mom left M'sia for 2 mths time from 9pm last night. She just reached Aus at 8am just now. Can't eat her cook for 2 mths. I'm start missing her now~~~~
Countdown-ing the days she come back from Aus *but im not sure the actual date she come back. sob sob*
latest me, my mum & my little bro..
Pity doll
My mum hang up all my doll on the rack of my bed. I ter-shock when I stepped in my room.I asked her :'why u hang up all my doll?'
She answered :'I cannot tahan they all spread on your bed. Looks very messy.
I'm speechless...feel pity to them...they like commit suicide-ing.........
Never mind, I will save them when my mum is not around~~~~~
我們都寂寞
赶着下班的计程车
一啸而过
下班后不想回家的我
谁要理我
很多年之前我问
买醉的时候你认识我
最后还一起生活
为怕寂寞我们做了很多
最没空寂寞
偶遇你之后我说
可是我 不知道想要甚么
不知道拥有甚么
可能我们都寂寞
迎面一个老尼姑走过
把路灯看破
有你在家里苦等的我
难道比她幸福得多
现在不想下班的我
我恨我 我不知道想要甚么
我不知道拥有甚么
可能我们都寂寞
走过马路的我说
一个人寂寞 两个人寂寞
可能我 我不知道拥有甚么
而我 又缺少甚么
我害怕甚么 怕甚么
我不知道爱算甚么
而我 又算甚么 我们都寂寞
*p/s: 很棒的一首歌......
責任
最近在工作上遇到了一些問題，遇到一些不負責任的人。很悶.....明明不是我的錯，但是卻被說成好像是我的錯。一些人，自己做錯事卻不敢承認，反而把事情推得一乾二淨。真討厭！！！！
我卑視你！！！
無奈的我~~~.....~~~
他的风筝
因为孙自佑，我爱上了这首歌
他的风筝
就到这里分手
安慰的话别说
我会记得你给我的美好
从此不再寻找
不再轻易拥抱
别管我的感受
别怕伤害了我
飞翔如果是你要的自由
我怎能不放手
不愿让你牵挂我的寂寞
你的掌心你的温柔
点燃了我点燃了寂寞
别管我松开手心有多痛
只要你幸福迎风
我愿意沈默
我愿放开双手
给你自由给你梦
给你宽阔天空飞翔放纵
你说爱他灵魂
为他牺牲是认真
你是他的风筝
该由他来心疼
别管沈默的我
孤独的我怎麽过
你要珍重自己好好生活
我愿美丽风筝
快乐天真去遨翔
就算我一个人孤独荒凉
*p/s: 想。想。。想。。。我好想。。。。
69乐章
"69乐章" 最近很喜欢的一张专辑。
走进cd店里，很想把它带回家，收藏在我的cd柜里
但是价钱有点贵，所以我就默默地放下它走出来
前几天在朋友的车上听了他整张专辑
oOoohhhh gosh....
我决定了我要把它带回家！！！！！
但是，迟一点吧~~~
因为我穷......
*p/s: 最近好像越来越.............................
Random crapping~~
This few days is quite a good day for me. First, my manager on MC for 3 days, will be back on next Monday. We all are nearly shouting out when we got the notice mail from our ex-Team Leader. So, she will not be around this few days and we are government free lo~~~ 2nd good thing happen to me is, I got informed from my company HR colleague saying that me and Miss Gan being converted to IBM Regular employee soon. We are so surprise when she told us because my manager just extended our contract and she never mentioned about this before. We being requested to fill in a stupid form and do an online job application in IBM career website. So leceh and complicated. *Damn it! And we need to submit our resume and some certificate but too bad..all my certificate are in my hometown and the deadline to submit is tomorrow. Another damn it. So late just inform us and want us to get prepared in this short period. Sucks!!! No choice, I can't get to her by tomorrow...the only way is she delay my converted date to 1st of October. Emn...it's ok what...now already mid of September..no difference for me whether to convert now or October lo~~~
The 3rd good thing is I already found another new room. Although is a bit expensive for me but I have no choice. I can't find any other room which is lower price than this. I think I have more freedom or free space in the new room lo~~~Just me & my owner will stay in the condo. Is nice..right?No toilet sharing......the only bad thing is no internet connection would be provided in the new room. I have to subscribe a broadband and it will increase my monthly expenses again. Yesterday, my colleague told me that she has another cheaper connection for me..so I hope it can be nice to use....
That's all with all my good thing happen in this few days. No more good thing.
Anyway, I become fatter and fatter. *shit!!! I started my diet plan last two weeks. But sometimes I'm not sure is it can consider as a diet plan. I take oat + milo as my dinner this two weeks. I know it is disgusting but I have no choice. My whole family was on diet now except my eldest sister. My mom was taking diet drinks, my dad & my bro drinks oat as well, my 2nd elder sister was taking Herbalife. Why everyone around me was on diet recently? So curious.....*hope I can slim down soon~~
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I attended a funny 2 hours class just now. The class name is so called 'CSW'. 'CSW' stand for Completed Staff Work. This course description is as the statement below:
"Completed staff work requires empowered IBMers to offer their best thinking, their best recomendations, and ultimately their best work to resolve problems or exploit opportunities
in the workplace. Completed Staff Work is expected of you. That is, you should provide alternatives and suggestions, rather than just asking "What Should I do?"
It was a bit boring in the beginning of the class because is some slide show and description from the trainer. After we go through all the slide show, the fun part coming which is Exercise. 14 of us in the class, 2 of our classmate being choose to become Executive and the rest of us are normal staff and we divided into 3 team. 4 person in each team and the exercise is we need to come out a final presentation on the topic given by the trainer. The topic is "Choose a restaurant in One U for our team lunch." The 2 Executive will choose a best team that choose a nice restaurant. 30 minutes be given and 2 minutes for each group to ask executive question personally. Unexpectedly, the restaurant presented by our team been choose as the best restaurant for our team lunch. Hahahahahaa!!! We are so sO so sO happy and excited although no present be giving because I believe that we did a good job. So proud of it!!!!
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Think of buying myself a new laptop. I have no idea on what brand to buy. Anyone got any good suggestion?
阿信的文字
最近迷恋上五月天阿信的文字...经常都会不自觉的逛到他的部落格去
每天都在等着他的新文章....
很喜欢他最近的一篇...标题是 “明天之后，对你见到的每一个人微笑吧”
看着这篇文字，眼泪不自觉地流下来...
很喜欢这一段文字
“當我們看著悲劇降臨卻無力扭轉，在電視機前面好想衝出去作點什麼時，我知道我們有一模一樣的心情。如果你真 的想改變點什麼的話，至少閉上眼睛用力的體會一下，此刻環繞著我們的，那些家人健在、而豐衣足食的幸福，它們在現在是多麼隨手可得而微不足道，而或許有一 天它們會變得難以奢求而珍貴異常。
離開電腦的時候，對你見到的下一個人微笑吧。
傷癒之後、明天之後，對你見到的每一個人微笑吧。”
*p/s: 会创作的男生，总是特别的吸引人~~~
我。就是这样的女生
今天的心情是平静的..同时也是烦躁的...矛盾
之前一直有预感的事情，就那么巧的发生了
搞得我有一点措手不及 但是却还是得去解决
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每当我一踏出自己的世界，就会感觉到自己很渺小
感觉到自己的微不足道
很想把自卑心藏起来 但是，它却偏爱到处乱跑
很多事情都做不了决定
导致每一件事都停留在最初
很多的挫折感，很多的无力感
不断不断的涌出来
表面上的一切，并不代表内心的一切
习惯性的把自己隐藏起来
因为，一切都只是习惯
常常制造一些假象，好让自己活得开心点
但是..往往到最后却变得更伤心
因为，一切都只是假象
很想大声的喊说...“其实我并不快乐！！！”
但是..却做不到...
因为...我的懦弱
很多想要的东西..但是偏偏却得不到
我总是那么的不知足..永远想要更多
因为...Im Human
很想停止这一切...但是...
一旦停止了，我的心要往哪停泊呢？
*p/s: 明知道有些问题，没有答案还是要问
原谅我就是这样的女生
IBM
不知不觉, 在IBM待了一年。一年合约满了，花红拿了，也再续约了
但是，我依然还是当初的那个我...讨厌自己没做任何改变..周围的人变了又变
公司不断地在引进新人，因为旧人一个个的离职....而我，还是没有那个勇气
好了，为大家介绍我的office吧~
我的风水位...
A small portion of south part in 12th floor
漂亮的pantry
我们老板称我们四个为 Four GCG Ladies
我和Stephanie..她当天很忙，很多issue..所以他头发有点乱~~介绍完毕...我的office就是那个样子
Window Shopping~~
趁着Mega Sales 的期间，去逛逛街...轻松轻松~~
但是，出奇的是...我一样东西都没买到..就纯粹的去window shopping
反而颜小姐与李先生买了一带又一带...
李先生不久前买了一架相机...所以呢...我们在晚餐时拍了几张照片
颜小姐与我
装可爱的李先生
好久都没有那么不顾一切的拍这些白痴照片...虽然隔壁桌的人一直看..哈哈！！！
怕死的他..连试衣服时都带着口罩...
三个人的和照，拍得有点远...没办法，waiter拍的...不好意思叫他重拍
我们三个人都过了一个很棒的星期天...他们俩满载而归..而我呢，却空手而归
没关系，省钱嘛~~*这句话好象说得很没有说负力哦！
*p/s: 真期待这个月的25号，因为有bonue拿咯！！哈哈！！！
昨天的失落延续到今天....城市人，都是这样吗？
在这个城市生活了一年, 但是..到现在..到今天为止..我还是不能适应城市人的生活态度或待人方式。不能接受他们的自私，自大，贪婪，贪小便宜，人情淡薄等等....是我倒霉，遇到这种人还是这个城市里的人全都是这样呢？
有时候真的是很无力，笑被人说假或做作，不笑被人说拽或情绪化...拜托~~人不可能全年365天或一天24小时都处于亢奋的状态吧？？？！！！人总是有情绪起伏的啊！！！
戴上面具会好一点吗？还是继续保持着做自己的心态活下去呢？
人，是不是到了这个阶段都会面对这些问题呢？以前所谓的朋友，所谓的姐妹或兄弟，全都在这个阶段消失了~~剩下的全都是那种以自己利益为先的所谓‘朋友或同事’。
我~~~~~今天好不开心哦............
*p/s: ‘如果我变成回忆’一直在我脑海里旋绕着。
如果我變成回憶
累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了 心跳在梦中
不听话的就停止了
听着 呼吸像浪潮摆动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你 我不怪你
快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你
如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记
*p/s: 重複的聽著這首歌 , 重複的跟唱著 , 眼淚就不知覺的留下來
如果我變成回憶 , 退出了這場生命
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比赛
刚刚从Astro新秀大赛决赛的现场回来，冠军并不是我所看好的那位...
有少少的失落...希望亚军能多多加油...虽然他没能拿到冠军
但我还是希望他能代表马来西亚到国外去参加全球新秀大赛
拿到更多的奖项啰！！！
比赛真的是残酷的..评审永远都没有百分之百的公平...
这是参赛者所必须接受的
我心目中的冠军并不一定是你心目中的冠军
你心目中的冠军并不一定是他心目中的冠军
所以，比赛还是要靠那么一点点的运气
如今，我心目中的冠军成为了这场比赛的亚军
但是，他始终还是我心目中的冠军
支持他哟！！！
*p/s: 夜已深，我开始语无伦次了...冠军？亚军？~~
'生经理'?!
今天收到了爸爸送来的一封讯息, 内容就只有一句 "爸爸生了经理" 生or升？真的是给他气到....
过后我回了通电话给他，他说老板说要升他为副经理。不知道是真是假，因为他都还没做满一年，哪有可能那么快升职呢？
家里有个这样的爸爸，还蛮好的~~有时真的被他搞得又好气又好笑呢...
*p/s: 这个星期没回家，刚刚听了爸爸的声音就开始想家了....才一个星期...真希望自己能尽快适应一个人在外的生活......~~~~~~~~~
谈谈...说说...
*有点后悔写了旅游的那一篇...因为我很懒惰再继续写part2..
所以啊，我应该不会继续了..只是会把照片放上面书而已。
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最近好像很多朋友都遇到了感情上的问题，纷纷都向我诉苦或要我给意见
听着他们的故事，听着他们的点点滴滴，听着他们的问题
听着听着，让我觉得其实单身也有一点点的好处或自由
没有感情的束缚，没有两个人在一起的压力，没有沟通的问题，没有没有没有......
但是，同时我也没有另一半的呵护，另一半的关心，另一半的甜言蜜语，也是没有没有没有.....
矛盾
朋友都会问我意见，而我也会适时地给予一些自己的看法
同时，我也会在想着..我的意见真的有用吗？
毕竟我是个没经验的人...一切的看法就只是我很单纯的想法，很逻辑的思考
对他们真的有用吗？
因为我总觉得我是个第三者，我是个局外人..所以我可以很理智的说出我的看法
但是，他们是沉溺在爱情里的人，他们应该会觉得我理智的看法是因为我不是当局者
所以，我认为他们应该用不到我所提供的方法吧~
昨天跟朋友吃饭，他们就谈到他们各自的感情生活
E小姐说，她总是跟她的男朋友说：地球不会因为你的消失而停止转动，所以你不在，我还是要生活啊~~
哈哈...当她说这一番话时，我笑翻了~~~~
我想她的男朋友应该被气死吧~~~~不过他应该也习惯了他女朋友的妙言妙语
有几个男生可以接受自己的女朋友说出这一番话呢？
还有一些不对的关系，不正常的恋爱，我个人是觉得尽早结束是最好
不...应该是说不应该让它开始
我知道有时候真的是很难，但是...我还是希望你能尽早结束它
坚强一点，理智一点，不要再被那些该死的想法，该死的甜言蜜语成为你的阻力
坚持自己的想法，纠正一切不对的想法，让它回到正确的轨道上
快快的做个了结，拖拖拉拉并不见得对这事情有任何的帮助
狠下心，做出你的决定吧~~~~
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最近，爱上了"一路上有你"这首歌..张心杰版本
不停重复的在youtube看着他之前参赛的片断
唱得超感动的，可能是因为他在唱前说了一段他自己的恋爱关系
女朋友的离弃，他的悲伤
可能那一切只是一种宣传手法，不是真实故事
但是，无可否认的...他的故事，他的歌声...打动了大家...
有什么办法可以把youtube的短片变成mp3呢？
Trip to Ho Chi Minh - Part 1
Went Ho Chi Minh last month (17th of June ~ 20th of June). 4 days trip. Fun or not?Emn...So so lo~~ it can be fun but due to we lack of planning..so..just can consider as a relax trip lo...
waiting our plane to be boarding...early in the morning..our flight is 7am, slept at 3.30am..woke up at 4.30am, start our journey to airport at 5am. Damn damn tired and headache......
queue-ing up to our plane...we have to walk a long long street to reach here...*really budgeted lo~
reached HCM airport.
our room~~Saigon Mini Hotel at District 1
first meal in HCM - fried 'pho~~' *something like small kuey teow
'pho~~' in soup~
street that our hotel located
culture in Vietnam...small stall at roadside..everyone sit on the small chair and had their drink or food..
first jump shoot in front of a Museum. *forgot what's the museum's nameWe took less photo in first day because my fren's camera keep shaking..and we forgot to bring another camera out. So, we din't take many photo at noon section.
Walked out for dinner....
I wonder...how come he can slept on his motorbike?He won't fall down?
Traffic in HCM is damn damn scary..we can't cross the road when we first day reached. Their road was not proper structure..althought there have traffic light..but......almost 80% is motorbike on the road. I never see so many motorbike on the road in one time. Really amazing~~~Our dinner..not so good...so nothing much to elaborate...*hehehe~~
after dinner...we went to a cafe beside our hotel..'Sozo cafe'..it is a nice cafe..some of the waiters there are disable persons such as deafness and dumb. I think this cafe is for charity purpose because I saw some flyers there and some souvenir which is made from those disable persons.*Can't update because I haven't get all the photo. Still have some part of photo at my friend there.
Friday Leave~
星期五请假..每次请假，很多人就会问 “为什么请假啊？”请假需要理由的吗？嗯...可能大家不知道我们公司的制度吧...每个星期一以及星期五，公司都很多人请假。因为，大家负责不同的国家，马来西亚假期都要工作，所以有很多补假...因此大家都喜欢在星期一或星期五请假...因为周末嘛~~
星期五，跟妈妈去看中医...没什么问题..又是那几句话..闷~~~看表姐在做减肥..很想问问那中医，屁股是否也能做...哈哈~~~因为我很想瘦屁股...但是，我还是没问出口..
晚上，妈妈没煮因为我们打算到餐馆去吃。因为妈妈上山赢了一点钱，所以要请吃...嘻嘻~~
可惜，我们每次关顾的餐馆没开，只好到另一件去吃。但是，没有很好吃...失望~~
最近变赌神的妈妈，她一直都不要看镜头..闷~~~
最近因为工作关系，所以变很黑的爸爸~~*就快变印度人了啦~
自恋的小弟，拼命的在自拍~
装忧郁的我...
咖哩魔鬼鱼
咸鱼猪肉
梅菜扣肉
铁板豆腐
菜旦我们四个人...却吃五样菜..恐怖~~而且全部都吃完..果真是名不虚实的大吃家族。
今天又是星期天了...明天又是星期一，恐怖的工作天又要开始了~~
*p/s: 你知道吗 爱你并不容易 还需要很多勇气
是天意吧 好多话说不出去 就是怕你负担不起
你相信吗 这一生遇见你 是上辈子我欠你的
